... and life goes on...

And life goes on...
Today while I was biking my way to my work... I was thinking in how my life changed so much in the course of the last 10 years... and how much I myself changed!
And amuse... I don't believe people can change... but maybe I should rethink about that!

So... lets see... ten years ago? 1998 My second year in college! And it was also when I've decided to start working in high energy physics...
But by that time... I had a very simple plan... finish college, get a PhD degree... and wait for an opening position somewhere in Brazil... (preferable in Rio... but I would be happy in another state too...)

5 years later I was flighting to Chicago... to spend sometime at Fermilab... as part of my PhD course...
I was very excited... I always wanted to go to US (unlike most of people say... yes... I wanted to go... spend a long time out... and know new places... plus I like to consume and where better to be?)
I've been in Geneva two years before, and had like it quite a lot! So I was looking forward for a similar but still different experience!

Well well... time past by... and this sometime ended up in two years... living in a suburb of Chicago... feeling cold most of the time...
But also... it was lot of fun... I went with two very good friends of mine... but that in that time, we weren't good friends... we just knew each other and were starting to get to know better (I mean... me and them... they were already friends...)
And we went along very well... I really like them!
Plus we made new friends there!!! :-D
And we party! and we drunk... and we had delusions but most of the time... we did have fun and we learned quite a lot!

And... of course... most important... I found love!

Then... 2006 and I was back in Rio!
How I've missed home and my family!!! :-D I was happy... but half of me... (maybe more) was sad... I've missed... (no... not the suburb) it missed my baby...

And... PhD... it is harder than you can imagine...
You get frustrated most of the time... and when you are almost in the end... it doesn't get better... but much more stressful...

Still... changes... yes... I've changed...
Some can not say... but I did get more relaxed after living in US...
At least for a long time, I was feeling too frustrated when things didn't go according with plan... (unfortunately... just to agree with my way of think that people don't change... this didn't last too long... and nowadays... I still find myself fighting and cursing... (life?) when plans don't work out!)
I've learned how to deal with people!
I use to say I am a little anti-social... I am in fact shy... and talk is so difficult for me...
But deal with friends is something... is how you deal with the rest what was a new skill acquired...
Plus... being a bit vain... I've got my curls back :P hahahaha

They weren't huge changes... just enough for the closest ones to notice...
But life did change!
The PLAN did change!
Here... I can say, things didn't went out according to plan!
BUT things did workout pretty well... so... I guess I new plan was made... and life goes on!

So... I've graduate... and I've got my PhD...
Now... things are not simple... you want to stay in your country... and I did want to be close to my family...
But I don't want beg for money... neither sell sandwiches on the beach to be able to fund my research...
Also... US stopped been a dream Country a long time ago... and get there is getting harder and harder...

So... new doors opened to me... and I entered!
Now... 10 years later... 3 experiments later...
And I am living in Amsterdam and working in astrophysics... (my 4th experiment... the first in a different area... all... looking for muons!!!)

Here... I'd change the most!
Here... I've lost my interest for TV! (dutch TV is the worst I ever saw... )
Here... I've got back my love for bikes... Some might not know... But yes... I did love bike!!! In fact, while young kid I was biking everywhere (until the grocery street anyway) and after that I wasn't able anymore to bile anywhere in Rio (yeah... I know people bike... but I like my life...) and I really missed
I know I've complained a lot in the begin but now... I really enjoy going biking everywhere!!!
I've also got more relaxed with myself... I had a time in college where I became so girlie... and all my colors should match... No... I didn't stop being girlie... but I stop worrying till death about matches... and I learned how to play with colors...
I also lost the obsession for perfect hair... and let it go... (but I still obsess with color! :P )
My obsession with nails it comes and goes... but now that I don't live like a princess anymore... it is going...

Oh! I'm sorry...
Maybe you are thinking I was going to make more grownup comments about my life!
Yeah yeah... there are grownup improvements too... but they are more part of a private life! :-P

Well...
Today... I just feel happy and relaxed to where I am (still with half of me sad... missing my family... but hey! At least, unlike in my time in US I can go there more easily to see them... at least, twice a year!!! :-D )
Today I feel more grownup... lest picky with myself... and growing in my carrier!

... and life goes on...
it doesn't matter what did you plan... it does matter if where you are now is making you happy?
I am happy here!
I hate my job sometimes... (but if someone tells me it never does... it is lying!) but I am still here... so I might like something in it ;-) plus... I find it pretty cool!
Amsterdam is a cool place (even though is NOT Rio de Janeiro!!!!)
And I am with who I wan to be! (for the rest of my life...)

Where I am going to be in 10 years from now?
I don't know... and I certainly don't wanna think about it now... just hope I will be happy... and that the new plan will come as good as it can get ;-)

And you? where are you now?

simple things that make us happy...

an expected phone call from home!!!

:-D

xkcd - Morgan Freeman - Wanted

Some days ago (maybe some weeks ago, I am not sure) I saw this awesome cartoon, from xkcd, about Morgan Freeman:

http://xkcd.com/462/

It made me smile... with the realization that this might be true!

Well well... I love movie theaters... no... not really the theaters per si (even though some are pretty cool)... but I really enjoy going to the theater and watching movies (I love movie night!) and I like all of it... buying the snacks... watching the trailers... and of course the chosen movie ;-)

Anyway... one of the trailers been shown, quite a lot, recently is the one about this new action movie, "Wanted" (http://www.imdb.com/title/tt0493464/) ... but, until yesterday I've been seeing "a" trailer with the dorky-chosen-to-be-hero guy talking about it... and I have to say... looks so lame...
Without taking into account that the main history is about this "society" of assassins who can "curve" the bullet!!!!
I am sorry... I am physicist... I CAN'T accept this! Is against my "religion"!

Anyway... yesterday in one of my movie night... it comes the wanted trailer... and:

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=O7ftozVc3lI

It is mainly in the voice of Morgan Freeman!!!
How smart!!!
Now, I have to confess, that after this trailer, I even considered (for a few nano seconds) to give a try and watch the movie! Then, more than a smile came to my face... I had to laugh of the realization that the xkcd might be right!!!! It was so much more "comforting" that I even could forget how dumb they are...

My my...
;-)

random...

According with my friendly sources... I've been complaining too much about the weather... I am in fact pretty luck, as I wasn't here for last years summer, which, it didn't really existed, or lasted only a week.

Well... probably true! Other day was so hot, that I was "praying" for some cooling down... The "pray" worked pretty well... the next morning was cooler... a little bit of rain, which lasted a few seconds... and the sun came back all strong and happy!

So I will enjoy more and complain less... (but if I learnt right... the complaining is what help!)

***

Pictures.... I've been posting some pretty nature pictures in my fotopages... so, if you (my readers... hehhe) don't find news here... go check out there ;-)

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Advertisements...

Last year, the Coca-Cola company sent out an advertisement (I saw this in Brazil, I don't know if it did happen everywhere...) that said more or less something like this:

"Do you know why did we change the color of the bottle? Neither do us!"

It was about the new Sprite bottle, which in a limited version wasn't being sold in a green bottle (which I don't find attractive at all! I already don't like sprite, and in that green bottle even less... nothing against green anyway) but t came in a blue bottle.

I don't know why they did it limited! It looked pretty good!

I was almost buying it just because of the bottle!!!! (what a shame... what a shame) but I didn't! I was stronger than the dark force of the advertisement... (too bad they moved back to the green bottle... maybe instead of a freak fan of coke, I would be now drinking tons of sprite in blue bottles... hahahha)

Anyway... still in the advertisement subject, and getting to a conclusion... This year the dark force of the advertisement got me weak and I did buy a product after tons of advertisements about it! (and I don't even have a TV, yeah, that's right... and you know what is more amazing, for me at least... is that I don't really miss it that much! except for "Lost", "Supernatural" and "The Big Bang Theory", I don't even miss the other soap series that much anymore... what a change, what a change...) ... anyway....

At all the restrooms doors on the Pathe movie theater and before all the trailers start... they show this advertisement for the new branch of the Dove soaps... "go fresh"

After so many of then, I got myself buying the "go fresh" "a touch of fresh" cucumber with green tea smell!

And, I have to say... I love it!!!! It is amazing!

The whole bathroom smells so fresh after a shower!!!

I am not ashamed of this one ;-)

a good smell is worth the dark powers of the advertisement ;-)

till next one!

African cuisine

Friday evening... time to relax! ;-)

I came home after some hard work day ( :-P ) and had some drinks with Pieter while deciding where to go for dinner...

... two shots of cachaça with honey and lime later... we were biking our way to a mexican place....

... to our deception the mexican place was only a take away place... so we had to move our "plans" for the second option... an African restaurant.

There the food comes in a plate covered with delicious pancakes that we use to grab the food (instead of the usual utensils)... and what food it was.... It was amazing!!!

I loved it!!!!

What a lovely evening...

some more drinks later... and I can forget about any hard work at all ( :-P )

so... get envy of us with the picture of our delicious friday evening ;-)

laters....

the sky

The weather didn't get better, is still bellow 20C and at night, if the windows are open it freezes to the soul!

But at least we have some blue sky! ;-)

(or as blue as can get it :P )

raining...

12C, wind and rain!

Yes... this is summer in NL!

...

The best:

Pieter

When I arrived home... tired and frustrated after my "working" day, Pieter had prepared me a bath!

Hot water, scent oleos... incense, candles, tea, candy and cookies... my book of the time... and some Vivaldi on the background! :-)

Ahhhh... Life can be so good!!! 

(I completely forgot about the fact that after the "right" cuts - whatever they are - I almost have no data left....) 

Summer is never coming...

As we are talking (Pieter and I) he suddenly asks me if I brought my toe rings... I answer "no"...

He then asks... "aw... why not?" and here is why: Summer is never coming!!!

When I last went ti Brazil I brought all my sandals since the weather was starting to get better but the promise of the summer it was just an illusion! It's not coming... and will never will!!!

Everyday is cold (thanks God, not like in January) but it is always cold... the constant is 17C and with some luck... we get to 20C

Now I wonder what am I going to do with all my sandals...

ah... I miss a real summer....

more flowers....

waking up is getting harder and harder

http://xkcd.com/448/

Thanks for the idea ;-)

I-Life

ok ok ok... I have to confess that I am in love with my Mac!!! awwwww........ :-)

First of all, it is all shiny and cute!!! aha :-D (even been all white... I was for a long time in love with the black one... but this all white is very cute...)

Second... is all so easy!!!! :-O All the installations are very very easy!!! And I am not talking only easier than linux, where usually you need all kind of commands to be able to install anything (except for ubuntu which is the easiest of all linux I know...) but even easier than install a windows program for windows...
Here... it’s all “drag and install” tada!!!! it’s done! ;-)
And there is more... guess the commands... “if you think it can be easy like this... IT IS!”

I love my new Mac!!!

getting used with a sea neutrino telescope e-log

"
Today, we saw a lizard (but this one was alive!) in the power hut. He was a little bigger than the dead one (was-it because he was not "grilled"?)

We will have tomorrow a call from the man of the "Museum d'histoire naturelle de Toulon". He will tell as if a lizard repulsive exists (we can not kill them as the “Tarentola mauritanica" is a protected race).
"

I "think" my new shifts are going to be so much more fun than pot insertion

;-)

smelly...

... and so it is...

I was some days out off my office!
The last day I came in it was last weds... and since I wasnt coming back untill beging of this week, as every friday, I cleaned my desks and any garbage I could have around here...

And thursday I was flighting to Greece!
The time there was great!
There was real hot!!! (everyday was 30 to 33C, not the one day 26C and the rest of the month at 18C as ams...) anyway... news about Greece and the meeting happening there are coming in some other entry...

It happens that then, monday and tuesday I was a "ill" person and stayed at home... but I wanted to check some codes from home...
On monday I find out my pc is down!
On tuesday I manage to get someone from across the corridor to turn it on for me (as it was informed me my office mate turned it off cause some noise was bothering him...)

But now it comes the worse!
Today I arrive in my office to find it a complete mess!!!!
Ah... but that's not all!!! It gets worse!!! I WAS SMELLY!!!
In fact, smelly is a way too soft word for it!!!!

TAVA FEDORENTO MESMO!!!!
UMA CATINGA!!!!!

I thought someone or something have died in here!!! (un)fortunately I didnt find my office mate dead in the office... BUT I did find some dead rests of slime food on the garbage!!!
Getting rid of the garbage wasnt enough!!! The smell persisted!!!
I was imagining that I was going to die in here!!!

But thanks to power of an air freshener, handed me in by the facility people... I can breath again!!! breath again...

.... again....

or at least until my office mate come back!!!

sighs... it is this mess and this smelly and is not even above 20C yet... I "cant wait" until summer arrives!

stay tuned ;-)

26C

Today (1st july), was a very hot day in ams!!!!

:-) ahhhhhhhhhhhhhhh

How I am happy!!!!!!

;-)

biking my way through ams...

And so I am biking!

Yeah, that's right! And more and more I am enjoying as less and less I am complaining.

Sure, I still don't like the fact that the wind blows this strong and I have to "fight" to get anywhere... Also, I don't like the fact that bugs can come inside my eyes (yeah... really inside my eyes... this in fact did happen this week with me!!! awful experience, even worse from the experience of feeling a bee hitting my face, two weeks ago... I need glasses!!!!) ...
... but better not complain so much about bugs, if they are out, hitting my face and my eyes while I am happily biking, this is a sign that we do have nice and good weather (not as warm as I've wished, but good enough! ;-) )

Plus... after using buses to go to the center and tried it out with the bike, I have to admit: the freedom is amazing!

Freedom: is never have to wait for the next bus!!! ;-)

I can just leave at any time!!!

Ah... the joys of biking in the middle of the night... with no cars at all to share the street with you!

Yeah... I love bike, I have to admit!

Anyway... those are in fact, a bit of old news... since I am biking for some months now... the reason that I am posting it here now, is that I have a new bike! More like me! ;-)

Can you guess the color???


...


...


...

Yeah, right: PINK!

laters,
A. C.

How could I forgot...

... to let my readers know that I've got tickets to the new tour of Madonna!!!!

Now I am counting the days until September 2nd! ;-)

Feijoada

Hello hello...

So... two to three weeks ago, Pieter's family came to visit us... and we've decided to make them a Brazilian saturday evening... so we've made beans!!!

We had to run (bike) to the brazilian store to get all the ingredients in time (in a very tight window... since weekends are made to wake up late... and cause without the proper pan... the beans would take ages till get ready...)

But... all in time and the dinner came out! All nice and tasty! ;-)

And here I am sharing with you... MY BEANS!!!!




Anyway... last week was my aunt's birthday (Parabens tia Leinha!!!!) and, as usual, she made her famous FEIJOADA!!! (I am not jealous that I wasn't there... cause in May, I had preview just for me!!!! and what tasty!!!! but yeah... I am a bit sad about not been there for the party and celebration... More kisses tia!!!!! ;-) )

Back to the subject ... beans... after lunch today (what was finally good: tomato soup + bacon pancake!!!! :-D yeah... I am happy!)... my dearest cousin sent me some pictures of their feijoada!!! (I was glad I just had had lunch... but somehow... I think I am getting hungry again!)

So, for you... My aunt's beans!!!!




Now... I need some beans, farofa and caipirinha... the first one are frozen... so I will only be able to HAVE THEM by tomorrow... the second one... I still need to by the right ingredients for it... but the last item! ...
THIS I AM GOING TO HAVE IT TONIGHT!!!!
;-)

till next time!
A.C.

back on busniess

After a whole month without proper internet at home... I am finally back on business! ;-)
It was hard but ok... thanks to some unlocked wireless around the house and internet at work place... but "there is no place like home" :-P

Now that I am finally connected to the world again... I am back on the blog business ;-) ... I have tons of pictures to upload... so for the followers of my life (yeah, right... hihihi) I suggest a visit on the daily bases to my fotopages page (http://assisjesus.fotopages.com/) it has all my new recent pictures.... since end of may... with little comments in portuguese and english...

Have fun and stay tunned for more news ;-)

A.C.

Supernatural

It's going to be a long, hard road out of Hell waiting for Supernatural's fourth season to begin...

back in NL

So... my vacation period is done! (yeah right :-P in fact... tomorrow I am going to Triste... then in two weekends I will go camping... and in mid june, to Paris... though... Paris I am going at work ;-) what a nice work... sometimes it pay off ;-))... anyway...
My Holliday season is really done for the next 5 months to come... Looking forward to October ;-)

Spending time in Rio was great! The weather wasn't all as I expected... but it was good enough... good to bring my color back!
See my family was amazing! going out together... + see friends and taste the good Brazilian food! :-D nhame!!!!

Now I am back in ams... and... I have to confess, talking about weather, I don't have to complain about it! It was coldish when I first arrived... around 16C but the weather just improved... and today we reached the 22C :-D

Tuesday I came biking to work... felt a bit cold with the wind... but not much in the way back... when btw, I subscribed to a gym close by! (after 2 weeks of feijoadas and cachacas... I need to loose some weight! :-S)
Today I came walking... incredibly close by! And under 22C... this time I felt no cold at all! ;-)

But... if I have nothing to complain about the weather... the same I can't say about the food! (don't miss understand me: Food at home is always good! and btw... now we have a juicer!!! juices at all the times!!!! :-D ) but the food at nikhef it just gets worse and worse... and as I just came back from my lunch time... (which was outside to enjoy the sun - in my face???) I have to ask: what was that? My dish should be called: "Cause potato is never enough!" I had boiled potatoes with mashed potatoes and some veggie deep fried thing... in which we had (not potatoes, thank God!) rice... Could the dish be any worse???
Well... as I was hungry... and in here, far from anything (is like be hired by CBPF but be located in Ilha do Fundao... this describes well for the Brazilian readers...) I ate as much as I could... and I am guessing I will never hungry again!

Having said that...
It's time for me to go back to work!

laters...

sex X love

http://io9.com/391315/women-have-no-emotional-feelings-during-orgasm-
say-neuroscientists

So... does this means that in the end... women make sex while men make love?

hmmmmm....

vacation!!!

Hello hello!

So we are in may... and I am finally having some real time off!
I am in Brazil!!!! :-D

Last few days were very busy!
Even though it was holliday in Nl... we had parties to attend... moving to do... and the Queen's say to enjoy!
This did led me to days without much sleep! Going to bed at 5am... 3am... and wakin up between 9am and 10am...

After the moving... I had too little time to arrange the house... I've done just a bit... and Pieter did the rest (meaning that the house is still a mess :-P ) and the day after the Queesn's day I cam to Brazil!

The flight was ok... one hour till Paris... where I spent the night in the IBIS hotel, cause of techinical problems... then in te next day the fliht left with one hour delay... another okey flight... but with loads of smallville in my ipod to watch! ;-)
And then... finally at 1600 I was in Brazil!!! hugging my family! :-D

The days up to here were also busy!
After my arrival I went home for a shower and then straight to the restaurant to celebrate my arrival and my father's birthday!
The next day we went to Leblon... had a nice time... and sunday morning I ran!!! :-D

Now I am resting... and feeling pain all over my body... but feeling happy and relaxed... (even though I miss my baby a lot...)

so... enjoy some of my pictures up to here (assisjesus.fotospages.com) and stay tuned for more news! ;-)

xoxo,
A.C.

The Job - Part II

We stay... not because we don't know how to do something else...
We stay cause we don't WANNA do anything else!

xoxo
Dr. acsaj
;-)

Pink!

Aerosmith - Pink

Pink it´s my new obsession
Pink it´s not even a question
Pink on the lips of your lover, ´cause
Pink is the love you discover

Pink as the bing on your cherry
Pink ´cause you are so very
Pink it´s the color of passion
`Cause today it just goes with the fashion

Pink it was love at first sight, yea
Pink when I turn out the light, and
Pink gets me high as a kite
And I think everything is going to be all right
No matter what we do tonight

You could be my flamingo
´Coz pink is the new kinda lingo
Pink like a deco umbrella
It´s kink - but you don´t ever tell her

Pink it was love at first sight
Pink when I turn out the light
Pink gets me high as a kite
And I think everything is going to be all right
No matter what we do tonight

I want to be your lover
I wanna wrap you in rubber
As pink as the sheets that we lay on
Pink is my favorite crayon, yeah

Pink it was love at first sight
Pink when I turn out the light
Pink it´s like red but not quite
And I think everything is going to be all right
No matter what we do tonight

wake up light!

So... I have this wake up light in my room (see picture above)...
And I am very impressed in how this light really works!!!

So... I've been using for something like two weeks... every day (in between 15min to 30min before my alarm comes off) the light starts to come on, slowly and in steps.. from very soft to as bright as you want... and as alarm I have bird sounds coming on!
It's very relaxing... I wake up always feeling rested and well...
But wait... it's not only this! ( :P for the ones who got it ;-) )
And most important... it got me a fixed time to wake up every day, even without the alarm!

I really enjoy!



... and talking about lights... I also got (in fact, I didn't get anything... it was all given to me :-) even better) an Energy Light (picture above). For a light therapy (I did miss the sun!!!).
It also has its advantages!
It's like faking summer afternoons!
So... while outside is cold and grey... you inside has this amazing strong "warm" light coming on you!
Surprisingly (for me) I do enjoy it too!

anyway... continuing in the light subject... I think i *should* mention that the weather is finally improving in here! Even when it is cold... at least the sun is shining and sky is blue!
AND I am finally hearing other birds than the crows!

Spring is here! :-) and I love it!



(... so PHILIPS... here I've just done it 2 free advertisements for you! ;-) )

can't sleep!

Yeah... see?
Now you know I am going crazy... according with my laptop, it's 23:25... but since this is brazilian time and I am not there... sighs... that's what happen when I go to bed before midnight...
... and I just got kicked out of my room for doing too much noise with the keyboard... People are so selfish!!! :-(

... anyway... I can't sleep... tired of turning side to side in my bed... and starting a heavy headache... I've decided to get up and check my jobs!... another sign that I might be going insane... :P and I see it that it is still running!!! :-O and no... I am not happy with it! Whay is it f***cking taking so long to simulate stupid 10 events!!!????
sighs...

.... so, unable to sleep and to work... I've decided to write here...
well... end of last year I've finished reading "Anna Karenina", a very good book, very well written and kept on going... and wanting more... but unfortunately... after I've finished I was devastated! Such a sad ending!!! So I've decided I should get me some easy reading... and fun... so I could cheer up a bit! ;-)
I am reading it together some philosophy books... so... some fun chick lit in between sounds like a good deal... and since I am junkie TV without one... (even though I just got even with my favorite series and am now waiting for them to restart over...)... this sounds like a very good trade for me... ;-)

... anyway... while looking for some nice books to read... I bumped into this "Holly's Inbox" book/site.... and as described before... I ended up reading the site.... loving it... and buying the book.... and after all was finished... I was really waiting for the site to come back on its activity!
What a deception! :-(
The site started again... and I have to confess... I DON'T LIKE IT!!!
I am sorry for the fans of it... but I NEED to work... and me, myself, already have 3 to 4 emails to check it (I can maybe go down to 2 in daily basis... but still 2 inboxs of myself!) so I DON'T need another inbox to be checking on it!
The messages take long to come out... the history evolves so slowly.... it's very frustrating...
So, I had to give it up on the daily basis... it's just not for me!!!
I keep imagining how the people in that community have time to read it in work basis, chat and work at the same time... (and for what I know... they are NOT teenagers with spare time to kill!)

... going on... anyway... the site is still a lot of fun (for me) in a weekly basis... (if a too boring day... in the end of the day... when a group of emails is already piled up!)... and today... or better, yesterday... as all mondays... gray and boring... when I've decided to check on it... they just got a new toy in it! An iphone site!!! Where now you can check sms's too!!!! (I have to admit it... I liked it!!!)
I wonder how it did happen on saturday (or friday night) when it was supposed to have come live... BUT I do have live! And I was living it... still... was a nice surprise for my monday!

*** still not sleep at all ***

Going on... I've read "Innocense" from Katheleen Tessaro... and I loved it!!! The book kept me on going... the story is nice and evolves through the years... in a past to present basis... I really really liked... so I've started reading another book of hers, "The Flirt"... still... very well written... BUT... it looks like written by a guy... didn't like it too much... I am getting boring... she lost a bit in this last one (for my taste)... so I gave it in a break... and started reading another one... indicated by a firend (thanks Miruna!) called "Summer in the City" by Robin Sisman. I've just started... but it is going pretty well...

Another one... that I have by my bed head (together with my Sofie's world... which I really enjoy!!!) is one called "A girl for all Seasons" by Camilla Morton. I got the hard cover edition... and it looks like a "fashion bible". It's like having those glamours, cosmopolitans magazines for the whole year long... (without ads...) and with good cultural tips and hystories...
I really enjoy this one!!! It's good for all times! And plus... it mention so many nice books! and quotes...

*** ai ai ai ***

well... its around 5am now... maybe I should just start up with breakfast (I am so not sleep that I was wondering starting washing the dishes...) or try to sleep for three hours more at least...

hope all are having a good night sleep...
xoxo
a.c.

I hate sundays...

... I hate the days before monday!

and all mondays are the same: GREY!!!!

:-(

The Job!

Timing

... when I first went back to Brazil, I completely forgot to change the time of my blog page...

Not that it really matters, at least I though at the time... till my friend asked me if I was ok... since I wrote, at 6am, that I was just coming back from the gym and starting working...

To write this at 6am... Can you imagine what time would I have woken up and worked out!!!???

No.... that's not me! :P

So... now... for this kind of thing don't repeat... I am finally changing my timing for the Amsterdam time ;-)

So... my readers will be able to realize when I am going really crazy... ;-) :-P

my history line

I was looking at all my webpages... and I realized that I can reconstruct my track trajetory from them :P

1. http://fotola.com/berylium/ana_assis/
The first page... with pictures from my time at fermilab... parties... birthday parties... going outs... trips and so on... (including most awesome trip ever: Alaska!!!!)

Then is in fact a little trick.... I went to fotopage: http://assisjesus.fotopages.com/
and stay there till now... with fes exceptions... in flickr: http://www.flickr.com/photos/71684247@N00/sets/ where I was from first of 2007 till my 28th birthday...

And now I am back to the fotopage... which I have to confess I like it quite a lot... since I can have pictures and blog all together ;-)

aiai...
good times... good stuff!
:-) It's life... eh bonita... eh bonita e eh bonita ;-)

flowers...

Can you see it???
:-)

pictures

Having some fun with my new camera: http://assisjesus.fotopages.com

good weather

yeah! true!
The weather is very nice lately.... even when it starts misty... soon enough you can see the sun coming up!
It's not hot true... but its a surviving cold now... in fact I was even able to go to the center last friday, by bike... and not complain about the cold wind blowing.... GREAT!

And... I've started running... true... I didn't go everyday this week... but at least I've started (again!) and since the weather is finally helping.... ;-)

To the end of all my "problems" in my "new" life, I've solved my radio problems... I've been listening to the multishow fm!!! GREAT station! :-D or.... I am in my ipod!
soon I will learn how to stream my own radio station ;-)

For now... I guess that's it...

xoxo
;-)

correcting my previous statement

So... I need to correct my previous statement!!!
The weather is not better at all!!! :-(
ok ok ok... we had some few nice days with sun in the sky (on the days that I had decided start a "running" training on the park close by here...)... but today, I was planing to bike till the gym for my tour and have a nice evening in the center... but now I don't anymore...

We are back on the gray rainy days!!! rain rain rain
I am made of sugar!!! I could melt :-P

xoxo

getting adjusted

Well...
I am now living in NL for one month and something... but I am still getting used with lots of things...

First is the bike!!! At least is not raining anymore, so is "easier" to bike... But it's still pretty cold! So, I don't bike too much! Plus... since I am leaving right in front my work (really, right in front, is just cross the street) I don't really need to be biking all around (it is only extremely needed if we go to the center and decide to come back after the last bus... but there are always taxis anyway! :-P)

Other thing is the weather, even though everyone claims is not that cold... it is pretty cold, even more if you left BRASIL during SUMMER!!! Anyway... at least now, as I said before is not raining so much... so is good!!! and plus there having been some sunny days! :-D

While leaving in Pieter's old house we did have TV... and I was able to choose my favorite channel (Veronica)... there were other ones (they are good depending in how many series and new/good movies they show) but TV here is really bad!!! Its all OLD!
But for worst it could be... I MISS IT!!! Now in our new house we don't have TV!!! (cause some stupid mistake our flat came without TV cable... we didn't buy yet and the company didn't give us either... sighs)
So... while getting adjusted to the fact that I have NO TV :-( (well, at least we have some movies to watch! :-D ) I got addicted to www.hollysinbox.com It's such a chick lit weblog/mail but so good that I've just ordered the book!!! :D :D :D hahahahahha

But to finalize... I finally found a radio station that I liked... radio here is also real bad (is worse than France... I like radio there!!! even their music). But... I finally found a good one (the songs are kind of old... but good.... I just don't know about the ads, since I don't speak dutch (not yet!!!!)) It is.... the VERONICA station (97.8)... yeah yeah just like the TV channel... all old! But the best! ;-)

So... I am off now... need to go to work...
Till next time! ;-)

O Natal esta' chegando

Seja criativo! ;-)

I am back!

And so it is... ;-)

Wow... I don't right has a long long time!!!
Let me see... april! Then... what happen? well... may and june I spent finishing up my thesis!!! and July... well... july I've defended (Dr Ana :P) became older... and packed!

Yes... packed up! Then august, september and october I was in Switzerland, working at CERN :D
In between... I went like three to four times to the Netherlands :D ... once to Romania for Miruna's wedding and to Italy (Venice) with Pieter! :D :D :D

Let me see what else... hahahaha...
Begin of november I came back to Brazil and I am in vacation since then! :D
No worries... just finally getting some rest! ;-)

You can check some of the news at: http://www.flickr.com/photos/71684247@N00
and others at: http://assisjesus.fotopages.com/

Stay tune... for more news ;-)

My pink world!

Aerosmith - Pink

Pink it´s my new obsession
Pink it´s not even a question
Pink on the lips of your lover, ´cause
Pink is the love you discover

Pink as the bing on your cherry
Pink ´cause you are so very
Pink it´s the color of passion
`Cause today it just goes with the fashion

Pink it was love at first sight, yea
Pink when I turn out the light, and
Pink gets me high as a kite
And I think everything is going to be all right
No matter what we do tonight

You could be my flamingo
´Coz pink is the new kinda lingo
Pink like a deco umbrella
It´s kink - but you don´t ever tell her

Pink it was love at first sight
Pink when I turn out the light
Pink gets me high as a kite
And I think everything is going to be all right
No matter what we do tonight

I want to be your lover
I wanna wrap you in rubber
As pink as the sheets that we lay on
Pink is my favorite crayon, yeah

Pink it was love at first sight
Pink when I turn out the light
Pink it´s like red but not quite
And I think everything is going to be all right
No matter what we do tonight

It was suppose to be phd_comics... COMICS!!! ???

Ah... Come on!!!
Where is the comic part???
snif snif...

my new dream of consumption

It's PINK!!!!!
:-D

answer machine

So... can anyone tell me what goes in the mind of someone who doesn't leave a simple message in an answer machine?

ok ok... I can understand that some people don't like to leave a message cause feels shy... or doesn't like the sound of your own voice... BUT what I mean is about those people who not only don't leave a message... BUT keep calling again and again... without pass any second after the answer machine be ignored!

I CAN'T undersdand this! Is insane!!!

If the owner of the phone you are calling didn't answer you why you keep calling again anad again???

If the owner is in the shower, you will call him/her till he/she get out of the shower... (or stoping doing his/her necessities :-P )
Will you keep calling till the person arrive at home, if he/she left?

Or do you think that keep calling will make this person curious to answer the phone... considering that the owner just don't feel like answering!!!

Well... It's insane... cause if the person is not at home... and the call is importan, you should leave a message... (or for God's sake... send an email... a sms, call his/her cellphone!!! anyone has one today :-P )

I can just imagine the call is not important and will keep not answering... what else besides this can happen? The owner will end up turning the phone off... Some jerk is loosing his/her time and bothering the onwner's phone number time!

Think about it... and leave a small message next time! ;-)
Be smart people!

Feliz 2007!!!

I wanna see it! I wanna see it!!!!! :-O

Perfect Combination!!!

Cortei uma franja ;-)

 

I REALLY need a new plan!!!

just life...: I know I am not the only one.... SIGHS!!!

SIGHS!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

running and other things

Well, yesterday I started a new training: run!
I am going to the gym daily, to spend something like two hours... is really good, is a time for myself, far from the stress of work that I can just relax and not worry... So, I am taking yoga classes and some stretch too together with some biking (40min) instead of my water-class (cause is too cold to go in the pool :-P )...
But yesterday instead of biking I went running... for 30 min... and I have to confess that I LIKED! :-D
It got me much more tired than bike... and a bit broken... but it was great!!! I think I will keep training! ;-)

***

The yoga classes are very relaxing... some relax time in the begining... good excercises n the middle and in the end meditation!
I just need to be carefull to not fall asleep during the relax time :-P true... last week, monday night, I was so tired that I had a slightly dream :-S :-P

***

On a diet! More like a re-education... no soda on weekdays, no sweets, less sugar... and eating more healthy stuff, like fruits and legumes... as reward I've lost 500g in 5 days! :-D

;-)
be zen!

I know I am not the only one.... SIGHS!!!

Put your records on

Three little birds, sat on my window.
And they told me I don't need to worry.
Summer came like cinnamon
So sweet,
Little girls double-dutch on the concrete.

Maybe sometimes, we got it wrong, but it's alright
The more things seem to change, the more they stay the same
Oh, don't you hesitate.

Girl, put your records on, tell me your favourite song
You go ahead, let your hair down
Sapphire and faded jeans, I hope you get your dreams,
Just go ahead, let your hair down.

You're gonna find yourself somewhere, somehow.

Blue as the sky, sombre and lonely,
Sipping tea in the bar by the road side,
(just relax, just relax)
Don't you let those other boys fool you,
Gotta love that afro hairdo.

Maybe sometimes, we feel afraid, but it's alright
The more you stay the same, the more they seem to change.
Don't you think it's strange?

Girl, put your records on, tell me your favourite song
You go ahead, let your hair down
Sapphire and faded jeans, I hope you get your dreams,
Just go ahead, let your hair down.

You're gonna find yourself somewhere, somehow.

Just more than I could take, pity for pity's sake
Some nights kept me awake, I thought that I was stronger
When you gonna realise, that you don't even have to try any longer.
Do what you want to.

Girl, put your records on, tell me your favourite song
You go ahead, let your hair down
Sapphire and faded jeans, I hope you get your dreams,
Just go ahead, let your hair down.

Girl, put your records on, tell me your favourite song
You go ahead, let your hair down
Sapphire and faded jeans, I hope you get your dreams,
Just go ahead, let your hair down.

Oh, You're gonna find yourself somewhere, somehow

some people...

... are soooooo hypocritical... so fake in the desire to fit in and show up...
It annoys me so much!!!

some people... really make me tired...

ARGH!!!

Making a day happier and my room prettier :-)

 

dogs... sighs...

Wow...

Long time no see... well, not exactly this... I could see BUT I couldn't access!!!
Now blogger has this new updated beta version with a stupid party-dog logo... and by itself it recognized my gmail account :-O (I have no idea how) and never more let me access my already owner blog account!
To add here... I forgot the password AND the email I registered in here (note to myself... this is what happen when someone has like 4 emails address... that I remember... :-$ )

well... now finally I am here again! UFA!!!

***

Why a dog???
What's going on with the world!!!
Nothing against dog, they are cute and so on... BUT WHY THIS FEVER!!!
Everyone, at least here in Rio is like this, has dog... stupid people live in small apartments and have those "cute/little/fun/happy/whatever animals"... then the poor creatures have to be confined there.. and they are not s,smart as cats... and will never be, so they are able to poo or pee in a box container... so the owners go outside with the so they can poo and pee all over the streets... AND THEY DON'T CLEAN!!!
(nothing against with educated people who clean the dirty... but the most of all don't)
So it happens that nowadays people don't even complain anymore about the dirty on the street since everyone has it too!!!
(I mentioned Rio cause I live here... but I can bet lot's of other places are like this... since we always see people don't caring a bit for people dying but being very happy for dogs surviving in all kind of movies... sighs...)

And now we see dogs in all kind of logos... even in toilet papers!!! (???) WHY? OH WHY?

***

Well... but today finally I opened all my emails and found out where my password was ;-)
and here I am complaining about dog... (more about the owners... oh yeah.... who ALSO use elevators with them!!! :-O )
People!!! some self education before get yourself a dog!!!
No surprise why kids today dont respect their parents... they care more about the dogs and still don't do a good job!!!

***

Father's day

:-D
Originally uploaded by ana_assisjesus.

Come check the pictures ;-)

a bit of me!Time if your life!

a bit of me!
Originally uploaded by ana_assisjesus.

Time grabs you by the wrist;
directs you where to go.

So make the best of this test
and don't ask why.

It's not a question
but a lesson learned in time.

It's something unpredictable
but in the end it's right.
I hope you had the time of your life.

So take the photographs
and still frames in your mind.

Hang it on a shelf
In good health and good time.

Tattoos of memories
and dead skin on trial.

For what it's worth,
it was worth all the while.

It's something unpredictable
but in the end it's right.
I hope you had the time of your life.

Sporty!

Ah... It's already one month that I am in the "new" gym... and I still feel a lot of joy when I think about it... Its not only for the sport per si but also for the relax :-D

So... today I went to water class (that I love more and more) and made some pictures of my class... the main idea was to take a picture of the view from the pool... (you can see the Pedra do Grajau... what is a quite nice view ;-) ) but once the camera was there... so you can feel all my joy ;-) or at least have some fun with me :-P

so check out in: http://www.flickr.com/photos/71684247@N00/

Well... but I am not the only sporty one... Pieter now is dedicating himself into biking ;-) new racing bike, new bike tools... and he is enjoying quite a lot (what is no surprise once he already bike as a mean of transportation... :-P , so add up the speed ;-) ) plus the place where he passes through... wow!!! You can also check in: http://vandenberg.wordpress.com/

my baby's present!

my baby's present!
Originally uploaded by ana_assisjesus.

It arrived some days later but it's finally here...

It's cute and funny!

I loved!!!

I'm feeling good ;-)

I've been missing some certain meat and cheese fondue... but at least I found the drink
:-P 

flickr news

:-D
My boyfriend gave a pro-flickr account so from now one I will be posting my pictures on flickr!!! (to start I've just posted my birthday ones ;-) )

And to update the (hand accountable number of) people who read this blog I've added a flickr badge on my template ;-)

;-)

it's getting cold in here

yeah...
Its Rio... but it is cold... COOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOLLLLLLLLLLLLDDDDDDDD!!!!

After passing some few weeks like it was summer, 32C and things like that... then in the weekend the temperature started to drop... and today was 18C... 18C!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! what a cold day... ;-) :-P

And on top of that... I was still courage enough to go to the water class... yeah... that's right... it needed some strength... cause damn... the sound system was down... (can you imagine an aerobic class without music? just... urgh) and the heating was off!!!! :'( The water was freaking cold! :'(

Hope that on weds the water is heated...

Happy Birthday to me!!! ;-)

yep... It's my birthday... again ;-)
and so... today is the best day of the year :-P

It's my day...!!!!

I even had breakfast on bed ;-)

******************** Pre Birthday!!! ***********************

Yesterday... I went on in pre-birthday party out! ;-) (being specific... I went to the movies... I love go to the movies... :-) hihihi )

;-)

Muito Bom :-P

pictures II

They are back!!!!

:-D

Pictures

I am devasted!!!! :-O
I just found out that my pictures at my blog are not keep long... the month is done th epictures too!!!
I am really sad!!! I've put so many nice pictures here!!! :'(

oh well... good that I've put my pictures t other place too snif snif :'(

old friends... good times...

This weekend Luciana and I finally went out together...
yeah... that's right... finally... sure we saw each other... but in two years... we saw each other once and pretty fast... this weekend we took for girl talk... putting everything on the table... and remember old times...
Was nice... some night dancing and pizza festival... ;-)

One week...

... for 3 years from here...

Who knows me... knows what I am talking about... ;-)

sighs... :-S

That's my life...

sighs...
for about two seconds everything seems to work... everything seems worth...
sighs...

New gym

yep...
I am trying again do excesrcises...
So I've changed gym... I am doing some workout now in a very nice place...
http://www.forumexere.com.br/

It's not like Lifetime (how I miss there) but it's close too... and better... the gym is located above a very nice bakery!!! with nice breads and suits and tables outside so people can get together and have a beer... very nice ;-)

I am doing a "zen plan" I can do yoga, strech and water classes... It's very good! I am so excited...
I have to walk a bit more than I had to my old gym but it's worth!!! ;-)

sighs... something to make this year a bit lighter :-) ;-)

And it's really just like that...

So, no one told you life was gonna be this way.
Your Job's a joke, you're broke, your love life's D.O.A.
It's like you're always stuck in second gear.
And it hasn't been your day, your week, your month, or even your year.
But -

I'll be there for you ... when the rain starts to fall.
I'll be there for you ... like I've been there before.
I'll be there for you ... cause you're there for me, too.

You're still in bed at ten and work began at eight.
You've burned your breakfast, so far everything is great.
Your mother warned you there'd be days like these.
But she didn't tell you when the world has brought you down to your knees.
That -

I'll be there for you ... when the rain starts to fall.
I'll be there for you ... like I've been there before.
I'll be there for you ... cause you're there for me, too.

Come on... I wanna leave the second gear...
sighs...

Music of the day...

Sitting, Waiting, Wishing

Now I was sitting waiting wishing
That you believed in superstitions
Then maybe you'd see the signs
But Lord knows that this world is cruel
And I ain't the Lord, no I'm just a fool
Learning loving somebody don't make them love you

Must I always be waiting waiting on you?
Must I always be playing playing your fool?

I sing ya songs I dance a dance
I gave ya friends all a chance
Putting up with them wasn't worth never having you
And maybe you been through this before
But its my first time
So please ignore
The next few lines cause they're directed at you

I cant always be waiting waiting on you
I cant always be playing playing your fool
I keep playing your part
But its not my scene
Wont this plot not twist?
I've had enough mystery.
Keep building me up, then shooting me down
Well im already down
Just wait a minute
Just sitting waiting
Just wait a minute
Just sitting waiting

Well if I was in your position
Id put down all my ammunition
I'd wondered why'd it taken me so long
But Lord knows that I'm not you
And If I was I wouldn't be so cruel
Cause waiting on love ain't so easy to do

Must I always be waiting waiting on you?
Must I always be playing playing your fool?
No I cant always be waiting waiting on you
I cant always be playing playing your fool, foool

Taking a break of my curls

I was born to have straight hair...
sighs...

Feliz Dia dos Namorados

IMG_0882.JPG
Originally uploaded by Pieter van den Berg.

For all those following the brazillian calendar... ;-)

Meu Inferno Astral (Astral Hell)

Sighs...

Ok... I know that if you do believe in this I am still 14 days far from my astral hell... but still maybe this is just the preview!

Wasn't enough the fact that I will turn 27 (3 to 30!!! can you imagine the drama I will make when I come to 30! :-O ) so... wasn't enough THEN have the Astral Hell!!!

That started last weekend!!! so... I have my problems... and I can't stop everything and deal with them (well, I think is a common problem of all human being!!! what a gift!) so I had to deal with it at my way... and still work... maybe the work is my hell... but sometimes is my paradise! :-S
nha... this is not really a complain... this is how life it is (and could be worse... but it isn't!!! :-D I am thankfull to that!)

So... I did deal with it! people can think that is not a good way... I want them to screw!!! it works... and if I don't deal by myself would you deal it for me? hell no ah?! ;-) I though so ;-)

So... I spent three days inside my room... windows shut! (of course I went out my room to eat and take a shower... duh!) and still I was working... (work shut in my room is not that different that work in my office! in fact is MUCH BETTER!!! I don't have to get that damn bus... suffer with the hot weather... and PLUS I can shut and "unshut" my window, WITH A VIEW. what I don't have at my office)!

So instead of look like I am depressed in my house... is just seem like I am relaxing in confy pj's at my room! ;-)
That was good! Great in fact!

Then... yesterday.... passed the storn... I went out... went to the gym more specifically! that was good!!! the cicle class was great!!! and today I made my avaliation! (aha! 1.66m with 58Kg ;-) yeah... life is good sometimes!)

then a movie!!! yes Sir... I know how to please myself ;-)

***

;-) Astral Hell for you? I am out of mine even before had started!!!
***

It's not so bad...

Sighs....

Today I had one of those days when you think "Hell, it can't get worse..."
nha... no... I am exagerating... even why... I don't believe it CAN'T get worse... it ALAWYS can!

but... anyaway... ah... so in fact... yeah... it wasn't that bad... :-P

This is for you... (you know you! ;-) Love you!!! xxx X!)

My tea's gone cold, I'm wondering why
I got out of bed at all
The morning rain clouds up my window
and I can't see at all
And even if I could it'd all be grey,
but your picture on my wall
It reminds me that it's not so bad,
it's not so bad

I drank too much last night, got bills to pay,
my head just feels in pain
I missed the bus and there'll be hell today,
I'm late for work again
And even if I'm there, they'll all imply
that I might not last the day
And then you call me and it's not so bad,
it's not so bad and

I want to thank you
for giving me the best day of my life
Oh just to be with you
is having the best day of my life

Push the door, I'm home at last
and I'm soaking through and through
Then you hand me a towel
and all I see is you
And even if my house falls down,
I wouldn't have a clue
Because you're near me and

I want to thank you
for giving me the best day of my life
Oh just to be with you
is having the best day of my life